Humility

We often request the truth about ourselves as if this new report would unveil a list of great triumphs which would render us to be smugly embarrassed, as others then envy our sterling achievements. How awful it was to discover instead, my own plainness. This was not what I expected, I want to shuffle away and hide the sheer ugliness of myself, to bury my troubled thoughts under in a blanket of man’s reasonings and comradery. One is tempted to protest, to request a recount but this is pointless. We have simply got what we prayed for all those years ago, to have God use us, not realising that in doing so we were allowing his Love to replace the broken aspects of our being.These discarded fragments are of course the old us, the parts of ourselves which we loved and cherished.

When we step back, we realise that the good we are doing in our lives, is not due to us and in fact we have just been benevolently possessed by God’s spirit. We can take no credit for anything and acknowledge we must get less and less in order for Him to expand and utilise us. Indeed, this is how forgiveness is truly borne out; the parts of us (and eventually this will entail all of ourselves) that have sinned will be punished in the ultimate way by being put to death. The difference is rather than vanish into an eternal abyss, we will be resurrected into a new life. When we realise that the actual journey is beyond these earthly borders, a new adventure begins. We sense that our real family resides here, that it is our true home; the place our hearts have yearned for, for all these years.